“Your visions will become clear only when you can look into your own heart. Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes.”
Carl Gustav Jung
For the past three years, I’ve been struggling with my creative work. I’ve had a series of curveballs thrown at me and I found it hard to stay in the game.
I have family members with serious medical issues that required my attention and care.
I took a full time job to help make ends meet. The commute was long and that left little left time to create, and when I did, I was exhausted.
I all but stopped doing the very things that keep me going~ painting and music.
I gotta tell ya, I’m not a very happy camper if I’m not creating. It helps me process life. And I prefer to be happy. So I took a good hard look at my life and started working on changing the things I could. Last year we sold our house in the country and moved into town. I’m now 3 miles from my day job. That gave me an extra two hours a day. I was further helped by a reduction of hours at work-from 40 hours to 31, giving me an extra 9 hours a week.
That opened the door even wider for my muses.
I stepped up my meditation and prayer practice and did some serious soul searching. And last but not least, I returned to putting my creativity first. I get up early every day and paint and write music before I leave for my day job. That way no matter what happens during the day, I will have created. Taking care of myself makes me better able to care for others.
All this time I knew I wanted to change direction with my painting, but I didn’t know where to go. I was like a tired child that spins around the room till she drops. When I finally did drop, I had an aha moment and decided that my painting needed to represent all aspects of my life. In short I wanted all my muses to play together.
What’s emerging is a series of small, focused paintings that are centered around the heart of each subject. Each painting will also be paired with an original music composition and a very short ( approx. 12 seconds) video.
A couple of weeks ago, after an inspired meeting with my mountain artist friends, I started a painting a day. The next two photos show the rough drafts of the first 12 paintings.
Here’s a 13 second video of the first completed piece. Freed Spirit is about searching for the beauty in the prickly. Once I found it. I was set free.
It’s the stillness in the center that brings the awakening creativity to life. I’m glad I got still long enough to find it.
May you be happy, may you be healthy, may you be free.